The crush

I'll describe this from the point of view of a guy for now. The next post might be from the point of a girl, or as far as I understand their psyche. ;)

It all begins with a "wow"... a complete open-mouthed jaw dropping wow. You see a girl in the distance, maybe standing alone or eating her lunch at the office canteen. And something about her haunts you... those wonderful eyes, the innocent gaze, or maybe even the smooth glowing skin. She seems to be waiting for someone, a friend maybe? Does she need some help? Can you do something to help? You wonder.

Your friend notices and follows your gaze. Almost always asks for certain, "Dude, she looking good to you?". You blush a bit, ears going red that the friend had actually discovered the stare. You immediately take your eyes off, and stare back at your friend. Maybe if it is a good friend, you say "Yeah, she looks good" and the two of you go on; just guy talk, you know! The friend tries to bring up the topic as you settle down yourself, to tease you, but your cold stare or the fun you make of yourself on the topic stops the conversation.

In the meantime, you have been surreptitiously looking towards her, stealing glances, so to say. And once your eyes meet. Voila, the world has gone blank! You hastily withdraw the gaze: she's caught you! You suddenly become very interested in the discussion at the table you are seated at... be it a Rajinikanth movie or the Indian cricket team. But the crazy one in your heart wants you to steal a couple of more glances... anything for that beauty! Between munches of roti or asking the neighbour to pass the salt, you look up and sweep the room with your eyes, lingering just that extra second on the jewel.

By now, the friend of the girl has arrived --- lucky dawg, you mutter to yourself. Oh yes, she looks so good when she smiles. But you don't like the fact that the "friend" in question is sitting so close to the girl. Cracking jokes, eh? Damn!! You want to go up and wring the neck of that guy right then and there... you want to go up and tell him, RDB style, "Oye, bhabbi hei teri". But that is a distant dream. The guy has stopped talking now, and the girl is animatedly telling him something. Oh boy... you could have given anything to be in that guys shoes right now, listening to whatever she's saying; right from her nailpolish to how she found a bug in the code! But, unfortunately... you're stuck.

Hey, hey hey... hold on! The duo are moving out! Why does she have to leave? Oh, that smile!! She looks around the room once again, and your eyes meet. This time, you don't give up the gaze... you're staring. She immediately looks the other way and continues talking to her 'friend'. You follow them out of the door with your eyes, and then as they exit, you realize that you had been holding your breath for some time. A sigh escapes your lips... and it is then that you realize that the table where you're seated is really silent. Everyone is looking at you... like you're the smitten kitten! What the heck... you ignore the sly smiles of your friends, try to wriggle out of the mischievous questions asked in conspiratory tones, and eventually give in. Looking down and avoiding everyone else's gaze, you admit, "Okay okay.... so I had a crush on that girl who just left!!".