Death of a blog

Familiar faces are a great source of calm. Private, familiar blogs -- more so. The faceless anonymity that blogging offers is a treasure if you are looking to let people know your private fears and disappointments, and yet nobody should know who you are. A blog like this serves its purpose only till the point when the fears and disappointments haunt you. No more afterwards.

Life has handed everyone enough miseries, and we all would love to share it with everyone else. The sadist in us loves seeing others in pain, to know that we're better off. Remember post-secret? This blog has done its part in being the post-secret of my life. Strangely, romantic things that bring us the greatest joy are also the source of our greatest sorrow. Being a misogynist is so much better, that way, since you know for sure that all you want is to cause pain: you will not repent it. And in turn, you'll expect pain: you will not be deluded into believing that a relationship can bring you happiness.

After some time, the need to confess anonymously and to find faceless help ends. When realization dawns in, you don't really bother whether someone approves or disapproves of your actions: you don't need anyone else's judgement to justify your own existence.

The kingdom of black has served its purpose for me. I belong to the skies. My parents named me such: and I shall roam free. The scorpion in me has stung its enemies enough... I now need to find my shelter. Don't bother commenting: I wouldn't reply. I will also quit visiting all your blogs -- have been masquerading to visit from my company's VPN and therefore all IP traces will be from America.

I am tempted to delete all old posts. But I'll let them be: just in case they help someone else who lives through the same turmoil. The Black King will now retire into hermitage. Shanti, Shanti, Shanti...

The 48 laws of power

I found this yesterday, while wikipedia-surfing:

• Law 1 Never Outshine the Master
• Law 2 Never put too Much Trust in Friends, Learn how to use Enemies
• Law 3 Conceal your Intentions
• Law 4 Always Say Less than Necessary
• Law 5 So Much Depends on Reputation – Guard it with your Life
• Law 6 Court Attention at all Cost
• Law 7 Get others to do the Work for you, but Always Take the Credit
• Law 8 Make other People come to you – use Bait if Necessary
• Law 9 Win through your Actions, Never through Argument
• Law 10 Infection: Avoid the Unhappy and Unlucky
• Law 11 Learn to Keep People Dependent on You
• Law 12 Use Selective Honesty and Generosity to Disarm your Victim
• Law 13 When Asking for Help, Appeal to People’s Self-Interest, Never to their Mercy or Gratitude
• Law 14 Pose as a Friend, Work as a Spy
• Law 15 Crush your Enemy Totally
• Law 16 Use Absence to Increase Respect and Honor
• Law 17 Keep Others in Suspended Terror: Cultivate an Air of Unpredictability
• Law 18 Do Not Build Fortresses to Protect Yourself – Isolation is Dangerous
• Law 19 Know Who You’re Dealing with – Do Not Offend the Wrong Person
• Law 20 Do Not Commit to Anyone
• Law 21 Play a Sucker to Catch a Sucker – Seem Dumber than your Mark
• Law 22 Use the Surrender Tactic: Transform Weakness into Power
• Law 23 Concentrate Your Forces
• Law 24 Play the Perfect Courtier
• Law 25 Re-Create Yourself
• Law 26 Keep Your Hands Clean
• Law 27 Play on People’s Need to Believe to Create a Cultlike Following
• Law 28 Enter Action with Boldness
• Law 29 Plan All the Way to the End
• Law 30 Make your Accomplishments Seem Effortless
• Law 31 Control the Options: Get Others to Play with the Cards you Deal
• Law 32 Play to People’s Fantasies
• Law 33 Discover Each Man’s Thumbscrew
• Law 34 Be Royal in your Own Fashion: Act like a King to be treated like one
• Law 35 Master the Art of Timing
• Law 36 Disdain Things you cannot have: Ignoring them is the best Revenge
• Law 37 Create Compelling Spectacles
• Law 38 Think as you like but Behave like others
• Law 39 Stir up Waters to Catch Fish
• Law 40 Despise the Free Lunch
• Law 41 Avoid Stepping into a Great Man’s Shoes
• Law 42 Strike the Shepherd and the Sheep will Scatter
• Law 43 Work on the Hearts and Minds of Others
• Law 44 Disarm and Infuriate with the Mirror Effect
• Law 45 Preach the Need for Change, but Never Reform too much at Once
• Law 46 Never appear too Perfect
• Law 47 Do not go Past the Mark you Aimed for; In Victory, Learn when to Stop
• Law 48 Assume Formlessness

So much of these appear to be true. Robert Greene brings so many points to ponder about, and yet something is inherently wrong with all of these.

I can't put my finger on it -- what exactly is wrong. Maybe it is my 16 years of "education", of goody-goody moralism that is struggling against the harsh truths. Maybe I am refusing to believe that stars exist just because I can't see them in the sunlight. Or maybe my inherent nature is revolting against something that seems to lead one astray: like fighting guns and lathicharges with non-violence. What do you think? I can quote a thousand instances for each of these where one leader or the other proved these: can you show someone who has disproved this? Note that not using a weapon does not mean that it is nullified: if leader X never played to people's fantasies, that does not mean that this tactic cannot be used to gain power and control over others. Once again, what do you think?

Bliss

The reign is reborn, after perdition. All that was dirt went away with the old body. The new soul in a new cocoon blossoms like a butterfly. I spread my wings ushering in the joyous sunlight -- basking in the colours of creation. There is hope, there is life, and there is a ray of calmness following all the storms that have raged over the billowy sea. Of magic and wands, of charms and guiles, of souls and searches therein, the story unfolds yet again. I have denied that it ever happened to me, have vented anger in the public light, I have bargained with my heart, I've grieved over my loss, and now I have accepted my life. Life has moved on.

It feels great to be back, believe me. I am sorry, but I don't intend to reply to the comments on the last post: that chapter of my life is closed. I will visit all your blogs soon, and relive the joys of sharing your thoughts and emotions.

I don't have a Valentine's date, but I am happy that I could help a fellow colleague find one for today. He and I were sharing some evening chat when the topic turned to Valentine's day. He was confused, "This girl ___ I like, but I'm not sure if I should ask her out or should I just wait for an arranged marriage. She has her faults, you know -- maybe I'll get someone better if I go via my parents?". I had to ponder over this for a while. I replied, "How do you think her profile will be portrayed if her parents advertise on Shaadi.com, or even bring a relation to some other parents?". He told me a general description. I agreed and argued, "But isn't this the exact template of relationships that will come to your parents for you? At least if you ask her out, you will know that you've chosen for yourself!". He was convinced. I'm glad to say, the two of them are having a quiet dinner tonight. :)